The Begining of The End

The Beginning of the End.
Slowly the beginning of the end began. Right on schedule. A new shiner toy he had found and she could slowly see the changes. She was irrelevant now. Maybe if she had waited, maybe if she had valued herself more, maybe then they would stay together. He barely looked at her anymore like he used to, or told her anymore beautiful.  He had loved so long the thrill was gone. More like lust so long, and he had got all he wanted, she had given all she could it was over now. Her body and her mind not so secret to him anymore. He needed a new secret and a new thrill to live. Her tears didn’t fall anymore, she was used to this. She could only blame herself. But this time she had made a decision she was going to keep her walls up forever and her heart closed. Love was nothing but an illusion to her, a stupid fake illusion. She was now immune to it and might as well be because no matter what wonderful words she got told she would never be a first choice. There would always be anew shiner toy. There would always be a perfection over her imperfection. They would all leave because they saw her the way she saw herself.