All She Wanted was to be a Beautiful Memory

She knew it was going to come to an end soon but she ignored it because she was happy. He was handsome and funny and she loved him already. It was like the love she saw in the movies endless love. Except it was one sided. He did not love her she knew. No one could love her. Some people are placed on this earth to give more love than they could ever receive she believed. So she gave him love. He was her first and it was beautiful.  The pain far from what she had imagined it would be but it was the most beautiful pain. She was far deep in. He took her hid her away from everyone and showed her beautiful things. They danced around barefoot in her little black dress, bouncing around revealing her pretty lace underwear she wore special for him and he would pull her close to him and tell her he loved her but he barely looked her in the eye and she pretended he did. Then he reached down past her waist and slowly to her crotch then he would and play there because it was only thing about her that brought joy to him. These moments even though they were beautiful to her hurt her because she knew it would be over. And he did not show her to anyone. He had no explanation for this, he never had to and she did not ask because she knew she was not special enough to show off to him or to be the one to him. She was weak around him he controlled her and she became someone different around him. She craved him.... all of him and he all he craved was her beautiful body it was a true work of art. She would get insanely drunk with him and make passionate love to him, he anticipated that. She tried to convince herself he loved her mind and not just her beautiful body, but she could not accept this lie she knw it would all end soon and she was horrified by that. She feared for the day when he would get tired and they would have their last kiss and she would make love to him one last time she hoped it would be beautiful and memorable for him like it would be for her. All she hoped was that he would remember her. She would be his best mistake. She decided she would make him promise he would remember her, every little detail down to the sound of her laughter and that he would always love her even though he did not mean it in her heart it would be true and beautiful…