Mistress

I know I have no value but I deny it I believe I have value.
He tells me he loves me and he will leave her.
They are all lies but still I stay.
I don’t why His words are like drugs to me.
I am intoxicated and it hurts.
I cry myself to sleep everyday I’m a sad girl.
The crying relieves the pain.
My tears fall on the pillows that his carry his scent,
Or run down my neck over my diamonds and pearls.
He doesn’t always want me but I need him.
She is beautiful and he handsome.
I’m twice her beauty, ten times her body.
But still I’m his love on the side.
His lies give me life, my only love.
His fast cars and our sin are all I live for It feels like heaven even though it is hell.
His empty promises I know are lies but I believe with all my heart.
I see them out and I watch, The other woman, I watch from a distance.
Dark glasses, cherry red lipstick, tear stained face.
His children are beautiful I feel remorse but it quickly disappears.
Goodbye he’s said to me many times.
And goodbye I have said to him.
But when he calls I run to him,
I always do I hate myself.
I’m a bad dirty girl, I’m crazy for him.
To him my love will never be enough.
A mistress on the side is what I am.